Before my wedding

I came up with a pretty good routine I'm starting next week. I'm going to workout for one hour after work every day and alternate between cardio and some light weight lifting from now until my wedding but I stress that I  do not want to gain any muscle mass because I am absolutely not comfortable with that. What I want is to be thinner for my beautiful dress. I can't wait to get started. I'm going to starve for the next two months until my wedding so I can look absolutely gorgeous I have all the make up skin care and hair care products I need and envisioned on myself that day so now all I need to do is put the effort in to fit into the beautiful classic princess wedding dress of my dreams. I will not fail myself and I will look gorgeous. If I do in my own personal opinion I will post a picture of my body the day prior to my special event. Wish me luck out there. I have various diet restrictions that I stick to when I successfully lose weight. First off no soda it makes you fat and has no nutritional value plus I want to feel thinner and thinner and soda just makes you bloated. Absolutely no breads or meat except for fish and seafood. No foods high in fat and absolutely no sweets. So you know its just the basics but thats fine with me as long as I work out as much as possible and eat healthy and light I know I can look beautiful on my day

The day before

Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm scared to check how much I weigh because I know it's a lot. I have been very stressed and on a very low calorie diet for the last few months. My period stopped a couple of months ago but I know for sure I'm not pregnant. I want to be thin and beautiful so badly for my 21 st birthday I really want to weigh 100 lbs. I really think I can do it in that time. I went to get my hair done and it looks very beautiful because I have thick Barbie like hair but it would look so much better on a thinner girl. I feel excited for my next birthday this one wasnt exactly happy