The day before

Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm scared to check how much I weigh because I know it's a lot. I have been very stressed and on a very low calorie diet for the last few months. My period stopped a couple of months ago but I know for sure I'm not pregnant. I want to be thin and beautiful so badly for my 21 st birthday I really want to weigh 100 lbs. I really think I can do it in that time. I went to get my hair done and it looks very beautiful because I have thick Barbie like hair but it would look so much better on a thinner girl. I feel excited for my next birthday this one wasnt exactly happy